Supah and I go way back with our weight discussions--preDBD,and I can attest to her statement that she was HAWT when they met :O)
she was running and a WW model of perfection. she even wore a bikini on our trip to Cancun and looked awesome in it.
Me? i wore a one piece.
Supah says she has pics of this trip with us in bathing suits and if I see them, I think I'll find that I would pay big bucks to be that weight, even though I thought I was fat at the time.
I've been up and down since late teens, but right now is my personal best-er, heaviest that is.
I depress myself with the knowledge that my current wieght is the same as when I was 9 months preggers...that I was thinner the year after giving birth than I am right now...sigh
sometimes I tell myself I have a psychologically induced pregnancy so I not REALLY fat :)
hmmm...maybe therapy instead of a treadmill
but I digress
how did this happen!!!!????
I went to grad school when sweetpea was a year and worked part-time.
Late nights
+mommyhood
+big bottles of coke
+midnight munchies while typing papers
=onset of fatty status
Then work full-time
+mommyhood
+coke
+all day munchies
+no exercise
=fatty who doesn't have time to care she is a fatty
Then ***insert sound of record being scratched to a halt***...
sweatpea and I are reading a book,
she gets quiet
Me-what's up buttercup?
SP-Chloe at school said you have a fat tummy
Me-oh, well, mommy does I guess, how did that make you feel?
Me inside my head--that little MF with the anorexic mother better watch out!
Me--sniffle sniffle
SP-don't worry mommy, i love you squishy.
SP pointing to FAT LADY IN CIRCUS BOOK--she's bigger than you mommy
OMG!
I'm going to be the fat mom she's embarrassed by, holy shit!!!
But I'm smart!
Isn't that better???????
Apparently not.
I need to get myshit together:
Goals for week 1:
1) join the fitness center
I have NNOOOOO excuse as it is disgustingly cheap for college employees-$20/month
2)go to said gym 1X this week
I am setting the bar low so I can bask in being an overachiever if I go twice
3)drink more water
I am not giving up my belove coke just yet
Supah won't make us post pre-weight loss bathing suit photos will she?
Thanks for the comment! You hit the nail on the head- being a student/mom is tough. Late night is when most of the studying takes place, and sugar and caffiene fuels that late night brain!
ReplyDeleteI am totally with you on the kids noticing, my 5 year old laughed the other day and said "mommy, why do you have two tummys?" *sigh* Yeah, change sucks...er. I mean, change is good!
I am totally on board with whole setting the bar low philosphy!
ReplyDeleteFor example: I outright REFUSE to give up my StarBucks Frapps---but I am willing to give up the whip cream which is half or more of the fat!
And it has made a difference----soooo, I say go for it. Low bar and all :)
awesome!!
ReplyDeletethe fat lady
ughhh..
lord.. i have 3 kids.. so ONE of them is bound to say that.. maybe they'll point to the whale in the ocean books we read and ask if that is me.
YOU WATCH OUT YOU MOFO ANOREXIC MOMMA.. this stbmilf club is COMING FOR YOU IN 8 MONTHS. OR 12.. OR MABYE 24. But we're coming for you. and your little daughter too.. bwaaaaaaahahahah
* stbmilf- soon to be MILF
I think we are one and the same. We will do this together. I have never worn a bikini. Ever.
ReplyDeleteI never thought I would wear a bikini chief--but I tell ya, if this bod was ever thin and tone (tone is the key here) I would totally do it!!
ReplyDeletei realize now there are only a limited number of years you can really wear one--unless you're demi moore or jennifer aniston--so I better get a move on.
i had a thought--i hope fatty lovers don't start trolling the site! ha :)