Supah and I go way back with our weight discussions--preDBD,and I can attest to her statement that she was HAWT when they met :O)
she was running and a WW model of perfection. she even wore a bikini on our trip to Cancun and looked awesome in it.
Me? i wore a one piece.
Supah says she has pics of this trip with us in bathing suits and if I see them, I think I'll find that I would pay big bucks to be that weight, even though I thought I was fat at the time.
I've been up and down since late teens, but right now is my personal best-er, heaviest that is.
I depress myself with the knowledge that my current wieght is the same as when I was 9 months preggers...that I was thinner the year after giving birth than I am right now...sigh
sometimes I tell myself I have a psychologically induced pregnancy so I not REALLY fat :)
hmmm...maybe therapy instead of a treadmill
but I digress
how did this happen!!!!????
I went to grad school when sweetpea was a year and worked part-time.
Late nights
+mommyhood
+big bottles of coke
+midnight munchies while typing papers
=onset of fatty status
Then work full-time
+mommyhood
+coke
+all day munchies
+no exercise
=fatty who doesn't have time to care she is a fatty
Then ***insert sound of record being scratched to a halt***...
sweatpea and I are reading a book,
she gets quiet
Me-what's up buttercup?
SP-Chloe at school said you have a fat tummy
Me-oh, well, mommy does I guess, how did that make you feel?
Me inside my head--that little MF with the anorexic mother better watch out!
Me--sniffle sniffle
SP-don't worry mommy, i love you squishy.
SP pointing to FAT LADY IN CIRCUS BOOK--she's bigger than you mommy
OMG!
I'm going to be the fat mom she's embarrassed by, holy shit!!!
But I'm smart!
Isn't that better???????
Apparently not.
I need to get myshit together:
Goals for week 1:
1) join the fitness center
I have NNOOOOO excuse as it is disgustingly cheap for college employees-$20/month
2)go to said gym 1X this week
I am setting the bar low so I can bask in being an overachiever if I go twice
3)drink more water
I am not giving up my belove coke just yet
Supah won't make us post pre-weight loss bathing suit photos will she?
